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"Those who were close to me suffered greatly, having to deal with me in my confused state. Priscilla and Lisa Marie suffered through my many moods and general backwardness in daily living. I am making a plea to humanity -- drugs mess you up, both mentally and physically. Just look at what I ended up doing to myself. You need to understand that you not only hurt yourself but you are hurting those around you as well. I am a true testimonial to this statement. Because of my lifestyle as an entertainer, I felt it was necessary to take pills to continue living. The statement that I wish to make here is that I did not realize that my pill taking was getting out of control until it was too late to stop. Although I was deeply depressed, and feeling very guilty about many areas of my lifestyle, I truly never meant to die. I wish to impress upon my fans that drugs not only cripple the minds of human beings, but they also play a part in destroying the positive atmosphere throughout the Universe."
On seeking help ... "When we had separated, I felt that my heart had split in two. Even when the divorce became final I could not face the hard, cold realization -- I kept telling myself it wasn't really happening. My mental anguish accelerated my life downhill after the divorce -- more pills to hide the self-realization of myself as a failure as a father and a husband. I can recall myself hyperventilating when I lost Priscilla -- I really found breathing difficult. I see now, that I should have sought professional help for my emotional problems but that would have meant admitting that I had them."
On shaping your life ... "I would like my fans to digest this one point in particular -- live your life with the realization that you, and you alone, create your destinies, however good or bad they may be!"
On the power of prayer ... "I have to state how important prayer was to my
life on the Earth. Even though I succumbed to drugs and emotional
insecurity, I never could have existed without my fervent belief in God
and the Lord. When I was growing up, my Mama, Daddy and me always
held hands praying together at the table before meals and at any other
time we felt a need. We were never ashamed to express our feelings
concerning the Lord and even after my Mama passed on, I still prayed like
mad and read the bible for peace and consolement ... prayer kept our family
together. Without it, I think I would have collapsed emotionally
and maybe I never would have been able to continue with my career."
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